Guys…I’m tired! The past week has made me realize that being a Muslim means that you’re always going to be questioning yourself, and, worse, you’re always going to be questioned.
First, the amount of comments and questions I’ve heard about Islam is starting to get scary. The ideas people have about Islam are not only shocking, but just ignorant. How has the image of Islam gotten to the point where all that people think of is violent, crazed men beating submissive women in burqas? Why is it that when people hear that there are high abuse rates in a country, they immediately ask if it is a Muslim-majority country? Why aren’t people a little more critical of what they hear in the media?
Second, I got into a discussion with 2 close friends of mine, both Muslim, and I found out that they think music is haram. What surprised me is the fact that they are both open, smart, and very educated. What surprised me even more is that they believe that you won’t go to heaven unless you are Muslim. I don’t believe that either of those things are true.
I wonder how long it will take to meet Muslims who approach Islam the way I do. I know a few online but in real life it seems that whenever I meet a Muslim who seems liberal, they are doing things they believe are haram. So if they are not veiled, it is not because they don’t believe it is in Islam, it is because they just don’t want to but still think they should be doing it.
It’s starting to get to a point where I feel like I don’t even want to talk about Islam anymore. This is why religion should just be something personal. But at the same time, when I have a discussion about Islam with someone open and like-minded, I get the biggest rush and I instantly feel very connected to God.
But this constant defending of my ideas is tiring. Either I’m defending Islam to non-Muslims, or I’m defending my Islam to Muslims.