Wow, it’s been a while since I’ve updated this blog. The main reason for this is that I’ve spent the last few months thinking about religion – a lot. A lot of issues have been coming up since I first became ‘religious’ a few years ago, and they finally accumulated so I had to sit down and think about them.
Most of these relate to gender and sexuality, things I’ve been struggling with for a while. They’re very personal so I don’t feel comfortable sharing them on here right now, although I might in the future.
One of my main conclusions is that religion has seriously been defined in a way that puts a lot of people off. When I listen to my dad talk about Islam, it sounds amazing & beautiful: it’s all about general principles, loving each other and being a good person. When I hear young people talk about religion, it’s all about tiny details and going to hell. Oh, and judging each other.
I do feel a generational difference in terms of religion: many young people are more concerned with the details than their parents, who may have seen religion as providing the broad strokes, not the tiny details. But I’m sure this isn’t the only factor. We are also living in the world that is becoming more and more fragmented, and where identity politics are increasingly the main currency of communication. I see more and more people relating to each other through constructed identities such as religion, race, nation, gender and sexuality. And not in a good way.
Maybe my main issue is seeing religion as an identity. Should it be that way? It doesn’t work that way for me. I realized the only way I can relate to Islam is spiritually – not as a way of life that dictates every single decision I make. Of course most Muslims are going to disagree with this, but hey, who cares? 🙂
Anyway, the struggle continues and it’ll probably never end. On the one hand, I feel it is better to always question and criticize. Everything. On the other hand – it’s just exhausting.